All I wanna do is please you
I think about all the times people say I constantly seek approval from others... Though that may seem true, I would say instead, I seek finding a connection with what I do.
23. You are seeking approval
There is a fine line between creating with an understanding of what makes people tick, and creating with the specific intention of impressing people. When you are seeking approval, you are only focused on outcome, and you are trying to do something specific based on a preconceived idea of what you think people like, instead of letting the work flow naturally from you.
The danger lies in diverting your attention away from the process of creating. The perfect balance lies in knowing why you’re creating (to spread joy? To make people think? To inspire? To inform?) whilst maintaining a solid presence with the work.
Granted, finding this balance is one of the more complicated aspects of creating good and meaningful work, where feedback over time can be the best guide.
Approval will come after you quit trying, and simply do.
As you may have noticed, it's been a good number of months since my last update, a good 6 months to be exact. I have been somewhat productive since then, was ill for some time since then, more depressed and angered since then, even lost my motivation and slowly gaining it back since then. I am trying to be more gentle with myself, allowing myself to rest when needed and push myself when necessary. I have tried to force new paths for myself only to be disappointed but told myself not to expect much anyways. It's been rather difficult but I am still pushing through.
I am hoping to change a few things, introspectively as well as with my work, creating as its own entity, SourmouthSweetheart.
As always, this is a journey in which I will try and try again, no matter the failures, no matter the push back... I will do my best.
It's almost mid 2018 and I've yet to share new work with you all but please follow my Instagram where I attempt a 100 day challenge of shitty lefthand doodles and start posting my creations.
In the spirit of doing, a friend of mine reached out to me for a commissioned drawing. I'm not going to lie, this was one of my first commissions and I'm so happy with how it came out. I mean, if she asked me to make something for her, that means somebody likes my art... right? :P
I've got more fun portraits to share but in the meantime, here's Jaclyn and her cute, sleepy cats.
❤ ClarizeYale